NEW

Everything seems new.  My job is under control.  I know I'm appreciated because they just hired someone I referred.  I've lost twenty pounds since January.  Evalynn is nine months old! She is SO big!  I am not with Jay in any way right now.

I have so much to update but I'm having a hard time organizing my thoughts lately.

EVALYNN
She is nine months.  She had her well visit today.  Only one hep b shot this time.  She has three teeth, weighs 19lbs, is 28in long.  She is eating regular table food along with baby food.  I worry about how much she eats, more specifically how little she eats.  The Dr. said she is perfect though.  She loves playing with things as soon as I put them away.

MY WEIGHT
In January I weighed 209.  I started doing Jillian Michaels 30 Day Shred.  I lost 15lbs doing that alone.  Two weeks ago I joined Weight Watchers Online.  I've lost another 5lbs in that time.  I also am doing Jillian Michaels No More Trouble Zones now too.  I alternate the two DVDs.  I'm thinking about getting heavier weights to do the DVDs with.

WORK
There was tons of drama.  I hate the newest girl.  She says she is quitting soon.  I went off about a week ago and my manager changed the schedule so don't have to work with her four days a week anymore.  She also took my word on a referral I gave for my friend Kelsey.  She has needed a job and I know she doesn't create drama.  My best friend at work just found out she is pregnant.  I am so incredibly happy for her.  She wanted this very badly.

JAY
I don't know where to begin.  And honestly it kinda hurts still.  So eventually I will explain, but right now I don't think I can.

Baby Center

Ok.  I feel as though I have to explain myself.

I am a single mom as far as Jay doesn't live with me, and gives very little support financially.  He does come see her and we have begun to see each other again.  So the WE in my post is my "baby daddy."

I DID take the morning after pill Next Choice.  We had started talking about baby names before that and I thought maybe it wouldn't be that bad to have two kids close in age.  Well, when I realized I could actually of gotten pregnant the last time we had sex I realized I am not ready for baby #2.

I HAD been on birth control.  My bc story is long.  I planned on Mirena throughout the whole pregnancy.  When it was time to get it, my dr. told me my insurance no longer would cover it.  He wrote a script for a patch, insurance didn't over it.  I won't get the shot, and I don't like the Paraguard because it last 10 years and insurance won't cover the removal before that.  So I reluctantly too the pill.  My cycle was only 21 days the first month.  When I got my period I was bleeding so badly I went to the hospital.  I was passing golfball sized clots.  They told me it was from the birth control.

I wasn't with Jay at that time.  So I figured I'm not trying to have sex with anyone right now so why bother with birth control that makes me sick.

Which leads to my BBC post which resulted in lots of bashing.  I am not a stupid person.  I can see my post was poorly put together, but some of the comments were a little much.  I was NOT contemplating an abortion there.  Nor would I ever!

All in all I'm sorry to those offended.

Baby, It's COLD Outside!

This weather is horrible.  We are on day 2 of no school for kiddos.  I, however, still have to work.  That means I have to take Evalynn out in this 15 degree weather to get to my mom's.  Yea, it's only from house to car and car to house, but I hate it.  The wind is horrible.  She had a cough last week, but she hasn't seemed to have it anymore.  Thank goodness.

On another topic, I'm obsessed with Nicki Minaj.  I love her music and personality.  I want to buy her album Pink Friday after Christmas.  I need to finish Christmas shopping.  Ugh.  Ok, Evalynn is whining so this is all I can fit in for right now!

BUSY BUSY BUSY!

Ok, the holidays make everyone busy enough.  But, I'm making it worse for myself.  The last two weeks I volunteered to work 6 days a week.  Then yesterday I look at the schedule and I see 6 days on the board!  YIKES!  At least I'm making good money.  I feel like I'm killing myself to make Christmas good for Evalynn even though she will not remember it.

As you can see this is really cutting into blogging time!  I have so many pictures to post and things to say, but by the time I sit down to do it I'm so tired.

I think Evalynn is getting a little cold.  She has been coughing some at night.  I hate the sound.  It is so pitiful.

Well she is down for a nap.  I think I might do the same before work.

Pure Romance

I sell Pure Romance and have put together a few specials for Christmas.  I have a Naughty and a Nice special.  Both priced at $50 ($70 worth of products.)

Naughty
Sensations-heating massage edible lubricant comes in candy apple and hot butter rum
X-Scream-arousal cream for you and him
Twitter-C-ring with wireless bullet included
Cozy Cuff-fuzzy handcuffs for light bondage forplay

Nice
Just Like Me-the best everyday lubricant a girl can have
Coochy-4oz rash free shave cream comes in original, green tea, grapefruit, and pomegranate
Thumbs Up-g-spot vibrator hits all the right spots
Bed of Roses-rose petals and tea lights set a romantic mood for a night of fun

The Holiday Season Has Begun.

I am just not going to have any time to post until after my birthday!  Which is January 20th if anyone cares.  I just realized today that I'm about to be 23!  I have no idea why that seems so old to me.  Lord knows how I will feel when the big 3-0 comes around.

My Christmas tree is UP!  Jay actually spent about 4 days over here.  He put it up while I was at work.  It was a nice surprise to come home to.  One morning I was feeling horrible and he actually got up with Evalynn, changed her, made her bottle, and fed her before I got out of bed.  It was something that pleasantly surprised me.

We went and got Christmas pictures with my sisters and my cousins.  I will probably add at least one of them to this post tomorrow.  Right now I just don't feel like it.  I closed tonight at work.  I hate closing.  I like being second to last out.  You get most the same money as the closer without all the extra work.

Also, like I said before I'm still a little sick.  Last night was the worst of it.  I had a horrible headache, was nauseous, plus the sore throat and cough.  I actually had a babysitter to go out, but ended up throwing up and just going to bed.  I'm feeling better today but still have a sore throat.  BOO!

Tomorrow I am going to start addressing Christmas cards.  I love the holidays!  I'm just super busy, and I'm trying to get more hours at work.  No, I'm not trying to kill myself with work, just need extra money this month!

Oh Christmas Tree...

What a pain in my ass you are.  I went and got it yesterday.  That thing did not wanna fit into my little Kia Spectra.  I tried putting it in the trunk long ways, then wide ways then putting the back seat down, then moving the car seat and putting that side down because it was bigger.  I ended up having to put it in through the back seat into the trunk, and even then I needed to SHOVE it in.  It was probably a sight for everyone else to see.  If I wasn't so angry I would of taken a picture.  I wish I would of now, it would of made this post so much better!  Now the tree is sitting in front of my closet until Friday.  At least that is when I plan on putting it up!

Well, that's all for now!